The Blog of ambyr

i hate my mom. she's such a bitch to me, she hates me and i don't even know why. so many bad things she's done to me i don't even know where to start. for my birthday she picked the restaurant, she brought her friends, didn't even let me invite my friends. and i was all fine with that until i told her to wait for me until a certain time because i was taking my GED test. she didn't want to. she went of with her friends to celebrate my birthday without me. she always looks at me wrong. and always picks her friends over me. she's kicked me out of the house so many times for no reason, just cause she hates me. she tells me that all the time. she compares me to my biological father all the time. and she's even insinuated that me and my stepfather had something going on. my stepfather raised me. he's like my father. she's so sick minded. she gets jelouse if i bring home something pretty like cloths makeup ect. and then she'll take it for her self eventually. last time i tried to reach out to her i told her how all the things that she does and say made me feel, i spilled my guts out and cried. i wanted so much a hug from her. i wanted her to hold me and tell me that she loved me. but she just laughed. told me that if thinking that makes me happy than to go ahead. i felt so humiliated. so angry at myself. so embarrased. i hate her. god i hate her. i feel so alone. in the morning when i wake up and i see her i want to hug her. but she just looks at me wrong. i feel she hates me because im kinda ugly.i dont know.